What I find really interesting is to try and mix it up,
to push myself and try different things.
I don't want to stay in my comfort zone.
I want to take risks and keep myself scared.
- Michael Fassbender
- Michael Fassbender
As I
sit and think about all the major things that I've done in my life, there has
always been that time when I doubted myself repeatedly and thought that maybe I
shouldn't be doing it, regardless what it was. What set me apart from a lot of
people was my ability to actually step out and just do it. I don't really know
where I got that from, but I've always been the one to just go out and do
something new and unknown despite the implications it could have on my life.
Thinking back, whenever I did that, it always had positive returns because I
usually went in with the expectations of trying to do my best, or better than
everyone else. I've always heard that the most successful people are the ones
who do the things that no one else is willing to do, better than expected. Then
I heard somewhere that if you volunteer to do the unexpected then anything that
you do after that is victory because you've already proven yourself fearless and
courageous to go against the status quo.
But what happens when you regress?
It's
a tad bit different for a person who has been there and seen what the fruits of
labor can be versus a person who has never been there and probably never will be
because they lack the effort of the gumption to do something different. With the
man who has been there and has regressed for various reasons, he kind of goes
through a period of self doubt, being unsure, and whole bunch of laziness. Now
typically a man who has a great support system, and an even better will, can
pull himself up out of that hole. He just has to get past the pity part to see
that everything isn't as bad as he thought it was. Actually when thinking about
it as I wrote that, nothing is too much different besides the fact that he
doesn't have that "go for it" mentality at the moment. That one character trait
sets the dreamers apart from the doers. So once he regains that, he regains the
power to do anything.
That's exactly where I am at the moment.
For
so long I didn't have the character trait that set me apart from so many of my
peers for so long. I was just blending into the crowd, being like everyone else.
There were many reasons for that, but the biggest one had to be laziness. I
became too comfortable in my ways after getting out of the Army that I forgot
what it meant to get out and get what I want, however that may have come. One
day I sat down and had a long talk with myself about what it is that I want out
of life. I realized that everything that I want requires work and dedication
now, so I can enjoy them later. Now once I sat down and set goals for myself and
then mapped out how to get them, I just sat back and thought to myself. How?
When? Where will it come? Then I started thinking to myself, "what if it never
comes, what if I never get it right"? Then in that moment I realized that I was
back because my initial answer to all those questions was:
"Well if I don't get what I want, then I'm going down in a
blaze of glory because I refuse to say I didn't try".
That's my thought process for everything that I've ever done in my lifetime.
Basically when I wanted to do something, I just said to myself, "fuck it, why
not"? That's the thought process I think everyone should have after initially
feeling that unsure or scared thought in their head. Because when you go out and
you either obtain or failed, you can at least say that you tried and that you
learned what not to do, thus being able to adjust plans without feeling like
you're doing something that is something like the second option. Being scared of
doing something let's me know that I should be doing it. With that
understanding, after feeling scared, then realizing that it's something that I
need to do, I feel a rush of adrenaline, I feel a burst of energy. That's life
right there. Without feeling scared I would've never went to various programs
for education, I would've never went off to college, I would've never jumped out
of the airplane, most importantly, I would've never found love.
So
with all that being said, if you feel that hint of being scared and doubting
yourself, then you should go ahead and just do it without second thought. There
will always be people that will agree with the notion of you being scared and
try to persuade you to not do something that you're thinking about doing, but
that's what those people are suppose to do. Those are the same people who, when
you do something they don't expect you to do, are envious of your results. That
type of going out on a limb just creates all kinds of confidence, and an
intelligent person because you learned from the experience
I
found the little part of me that's scared again. I'm pretty happy that I did,
because that adventurous go out on a limb part of me is back in full swing. And
I'm ready to conquer my dreams with ease. I dare you to do the same.
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